Nearly finished..

I have.. 24 days left until I hand in my final assignments for my degree.

Not that I'm counting or anything you understand..

Strangely, I'm having mixed feelings about it. I say strangely because (come in closer, a little more, closer,) I don't really like uni! Unlike almost everyone I know, this hasn't been the best experience of my life. The first year was great, I really enjoyed it.. but it's just gone downhill from there, for various reasons.

Despite this, whenever I look at the booklet giving me all the information for my graduation - I burst into tears. I don't think I actually want to leave. I think though, that this is less to do with wanting to stay at university, and more to do with not wanting to grow up.

I have been told many a time, by wise wise people, that there is a difference between 'growing up' and 'being a grown up' and it is, in fact, the latter which I am running away screaming from (and probably always will!)

BUT I think that now it's actually happening (the growing up bit), my brain's gone into panic mode and all of the logic has been thrown overboard in a bid to not sink.(like when they throw sandbags off hot air balloons to go higher) which is SILLY, cause thats like throwing the driver (driver?!) off the hot air balloon instead of the sandbags. Ah similies, you are my friends. (as, apparently, are you brackets!)

--(aside)--

Something which used to bother me about University is that I don't feel like I've made any of those long term friendships which everyone else seems to. All of the friendships I have managed to form over the past three years have (bar 1 wonderful american) either fizzled out now, for reasons beyond me, or just weren't that strong in the first place.

This is bothering me less though, because I've realised that over the past 3 years I have made those all important lasting friendships. It's just that I've made them with an entirely different group of people, most of whom happen to do the bidding of a fellow called Danny Wallace. Which is nice.

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I fear my next blog will be similarly introspective.. and will probably be along the lines of 'things I have learned over the past 3 years' or 'good things/ bad things from the past 3 years.' I can only apoliogise.

And point out (again) that I only have 24 days left until I finish...